I never realize I've been in the midst of a "stage" until I reach the end of it. We fall into rhythms, comfortable with the daily routine whose variations are represented by blue squares on the calendar. And even those tend to repeat themselves. But then all of the sudden something happens--the birth of a child, friends moving, a new job, the beginning of a school year--and feelings of nostalgia creep up out of nowhere and I long for time to stand still. I don't typically show much sentiment on the outside which is why I wonder if these feelings hit me so hard. Maybe I need to be better at expressing my joy in the little things before they are no longer.
I was walking to the bus stop to pick up the girls after school a few weeks ago and Luke insisted on bringing his umbrella. As you can see, it was a very sunny day. I watched him marching off in front of me, perfectly aware of the routine even at his tender young age and thought about how great this past year has been. I hope I will always remember how excited Luke would get when the girls stepped off the bus. Squeals and hugs all around. Having a child run to you with arms wide open after a day away is the best feeling in the world. And of course, being able to spend one on one time with Luke has been wonderful. I love having a buddy.
Now we're looking forward to another Virginia summer (with a Utah escape in the middle) and I'm going to try to experience it with gratitude because when school starts again in the fall, I'll be longing for lazy summer evenings.
Bring on the next season. Life is good.